8/20/2003

hello again

   Haven't posted anything for a few days. Been really struggling with something, or rather some direction that God gave me. Something pretty big happened a few nights ago that could or could not affect my life in a very personal way. And I want to ask questions...but right away God told me to just trust Him. To quietly hope and trust, one thing I am not good at, being quiet. I am good at asking the questions others don't...at figuring the angles and trying to see what God is "really doing." But I suck at this...In fact I hate it. Not really because I know God is making me "be" something He wants me to learn to be...but I don't like it. Give you a heads up when I can.