7/17/2003

must....not...give...up...must...keep...blogging...

I know this is kinda weird. I mean sometime when I blog I feel like I am talking to thin air. Not that it's bad to talk to thin air. In fact I see who I really am when I read my post. But sometimes I don't want to wirte. Sometimes I would rather be in a deep coonversation with one attentive person. But you don't always get what you want, do ya ? Today I joined a gym. No, i'm not like everyone else who joins a gym. I am not going to pay a gym $50 a month just so I can have a little key chain and be a "proud" member of such and such gym. I actually have committed to going 3-4 times a week. In fact I paid a dude $45 bucks just to make sure I knew which exercises were best for me, and how I should do them. So that was my eventful day. And I read another chapter in "a new kind of christian." Which I hope someday I will be. I know God is still in the decontruction phase with me. But I don't like this phase too much. Jesus teach me who you are. Not what people say you are, but who you really are.