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   ok kids...it is time for me to graduate to another blog... my new website can be found at http://mypursuit.blogs.com/come and check it out...really fun


why I don't like christian book stores

   When I first got saved the Christian Book Store was the place to be. I mean it was like the Spiritual Walmart of the true Christian. You could buy your Amy Grant, your Micheal W. Smith, and those crazy rockers Audio Adrenaline. But over the years I have stayed away from them, at least as far as I could. I think what made me frustrated the most was the way we (when I say we I mean christians that market the christian market) copy the "world." I mean we have our own Britney Spears, and our own Backstreet Boys and our copy cat T-shirts...the other day I realized we even had our own mints, test-a-mints that is. Now hear this, this is not a bash. I am just sharing my heart. So anyway, there has always been something that bugs me far deeper than the copy stuff and I never realized it until the other day. I couldn't find my Matt Redman, Where Angels Fear to Tread, CD. So I muster up the courage and went to the closest CBD. As soon as I walked in I felt it. Not the Spirit of God, but another spirit for sure. I felt kinda tense, maybe it was the woman yelling at her kid to not go outside, or the cashier that ignored me to talk to woman yelling about "spiritual stuff." Then I heard these words from the mother, "don't go outside, do you want someone to come and take you away. That's what happens to little kids that go outside alone." And it hit me like a ton of bricks. What I have felt was a spirit of fear....that's what they market. Don't do this, don't do that...eat like Jesus or your going to hell, listen to this healing Christian music, so you don't fall away....use this breath mint so you can tell people to not go to hell, without making them fall away...don't go outside or the devil will take you and make you into a demon. FEAR FEAR FEAR. Do you see it ? Maybe it's just me...but I am getting tired of it. Hmmm do we have our own "den of theives"

For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind    2 timothy 1:7


mr zaccheus

   Today I feel like Mr. Zaccheus. I feel excited, and nervous, and like Jesus is about to walk by an change some things big time. Isn't Jesus amazing ? He sees this little dude trying his best to see Him...So what does he say to Z ? "Hey Zaccheus, I am hungry...let's goto your house and eat." I guess when you are Jesus you can tell people that, well I guess I have done that before with people from my church. Anyways they go eat at little Z mans house and Z starts changing. "Um Jesus, I am going to half of what I own to the poor. And also, those that I stole from...I will repay them four time what I took." Now I don't see Jesus preaching to Z or anything, he didn't give Z the four spiritual laws. But just the presence of Jesus' company brought a life changing conviction. That Z, and his household, was never the same again.    So if you see me stuck up in a tree for a while, don't mind me. I just want a chance to see, to eat with and to be changed by the Son.



   My favorite Ozzy has the last name of Chambers. Here is todays meditation:

The key to the missionary’s work is the authority of Jesus Christ, not the needs of the lost. We are inclined to look on our Lord as one who assists us in our endeavors for God. Yet our Lord places Himself as the absolute sovereign and supreme Lord over His disciples. He does not say that the lost will never be saved if we don’t go—He simply says, "Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations . . . ." He says, "Go on the basis of the revealed truth of My sovereignty, teaching and preaching out of your living experience of Me." "Then the eleven disciples went . . . to the mountain which Jesus had appointed for them" ( Matthew 28:16 ). If I want to know the universal sovereignty of Christ, I must know Him myself. I must take time to worship the One whose name I bear. Jesus says, "Come to Me . . ."—that is the place to meet Jesus—"all you who labor and are heavy laden . . ." ( Matthew 11:28 )—and how many missionaries are! We completely dismiss these wonderful words of the universal Sovereign of the world, but they are the words of Jesus to His disciples meant for here and now. "Go therefore . . . ." To "go" simply means to live. Acts 1:8 is the description of how to go. Jesus did not say in this verse, "Go into Jerusalem, Judea, and Samaria," but, ". . . you shall be witnesses to Me in [all these places]." He takes upon Himself the work of sending us. "If you abide in Me, and My words abide in you . . ." ( John 15:7 )—that is the way to keep going. Where we are placed is then a matter of indifference to us, because God sovereignly engineers our goings. "None of these things move me; nor do I count my life dear to myself, so that I may finish my race with joy, and the ministry which I received from the Lord Jesus . . ." ( Acts 20:24 ). That is how to keep going until we are gone from this life.

i've done it again !!!!

   I found some old footage of Jared Williams when he was back in junior high. I never knew he liked star wars so much. Click here to check it out. Remember to be mindful of the force.


psalm 37

    I was reading one of my favorite psalms this morning, psalm 37, and this verse jumped out at me. " The steps of the godly are directed by the LORD. He delights in every detail of their lives." Psalm 37:23. I just sat there and read it over and over again. Especially the second line..."He delights in every detail of our life." I know this is true, but it was revealed to me in a whole new way this morning. It's not just that he cares alot about what happens in our lives...but he delights in every moment. The picture I get is of my very good friend Jared with his little girl Selah. I see him watching his little girl in anticipation of her every move. He isn't just concerned with her steps, he is really delighted in all that she does. That is how my Abba Father is. He watched, excited to see me. In anticipation of what I will do today, excited for the things I learn and the people I meet. He gets joy in His heart caring and nurture me every step of the way. What a relief to know this, especially for where I am in my life. Alot of times I feel like I am not "doing" anything worth while, or at least the very minimum. When you step out of full-time,very fun and exciting ministry...it's hard to adjust. But to be reminded that he is excited about me, in every detail brings such a joy that overwhelms me, I can hardly explain it.



   If you would like to see my final tat work it here. Yes...it did hurt. Yes...I will get more.



   I just found out that my co-workers husband is having an affair. Last night my co-worker found out, as if this isn't bad enough...he is a Christian, lay minister at a local church. Was the head of Evangelism Explosion for his church as well...stupid ass. I am really sick and tired of the excuses...seriously I have heard them all. When will we stop this crap ? I hate this !